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Saturday, December 29, 2012

Image and Resolutions

St. Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows is one of the exceptional holy saints who expressly defined a set of resolutions to live by. One of my favorites, of which he spent a great deal of contemplation over - to be sure, attempts to reconcile our faith with humility in the small things of the world. It’s a simple desire - one that needs no additional explanation. As we ponder the last remaining days of 2012, let us remind ourselves of this need to re-focus and re-prioritize.

 “Faithfulness in little things” is the motto I will always follow in my efforts to reach holiness.

To embrace my inner child,
                To read and pray more with Magnificat,
                                To cherish the desire for learning,
                                                To let go…

I recall some time ago, at a gathering of friends and colleagues, the request you made to me. Although the memory has faded and the resolution is fragmented with tiny little dust, the emotion it conjured up burns ever so bright. The instant, soulful joy of that moment is forever locked down despite my forgetfulness.

What did you say?

Something akin to encouragement in the time of frustration; that I should welcome and entertain opportunities to vent my thoughts to you.  Is that it? Did you really mean it? I can’t truly recall at the moment, so I’ll take it on faith.

Our ships passing...
As the evening came to a close, I prepared once again for the wintery elements. Fitting my wool hat snuggly over my head and ears, I marveled at how similar mine is to yours. Someone made a wry comment at the resemblance between the two (was it the hats or the faces?).  I smiled and so did you; that little whisper of kinship. As I got up from the crowded, boisterous table, not wanting to leave just yet, you said goodbye. My heart leapt at such graceful charm.

Once into the cold December night I paused - with every fiber of my being and all unified desire - I long to tell you a story.

“Do not depend on the hope of results. You may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start more and more to concentrate not on the results, but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself. You gradually struggle less and less for an idea and more and more for specific people. In the end, it is the reality of personal relationship that saves everything.”

― Thomas Merton

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